That's all I keep hearing from God. However, I'm wondering if I'm hearing anything at all. The heavens are silent. At least that's how it seems. I pray and pray and pray and hear either nothing or no, no, no. My question is why, why, why?! When is it our turn? I'm not stuck in a rut. I'm stuck in a hole - a deep hole - and don't have a ladder. This is serious.
So, here are my questions:
* What do you do when you feel the heavens are silent?
* What do you do when you feel like your faith is getting smaller instead of bigger?
Friday, March 25, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
I HAVE A CODE
So last Wednesday I had a scratchy throat. Thursday, still had a scratchy throat. By Friday a headcold had settled in. It was tough getting through the day. The school nurse also had a cold. I didn't feel like I could go home if she was sticking it out. But I couldn't wait for the end of the day! I went home and went to bed for awhile. Finally got up around 6ish and fixed Mike something to eat. He just wanted a hamburger, so that wasn't too bad.
Saturday was a most miserable day healthwise. But I'd already made arrangements to meet someone from my church in Waterloo at Hancock Fabrics. She's going to help me re-upholster my dining room chairs and cedar chest. I found material for $32 which will do 6 chairs and 1 chest (the chest will be different material, of course). I'm excited to get started. I think we'll work on it next Saturday. I should be feeling much better by then. I stopped at KMart because I needed to put something on layaway. Then I drug (dragged?) myself to WalMart to do some grocery shopping. I left the house at 8:30 and got home at 1:00. After unloading the car and putting things away I took a nap. Another lazy afternoon and evening.
This morning I debated whether to go to church. I could have gotten someone else to play the piano, but I was also in the choir and there weren't many choir members available this week, so I felt I needed to go. I made it through. We did the service a little different today. We held it in the fellowship hall and sat around tables. Communion bread and juice were in the center of each table. It was a meaningful time. We also spent time praying for our families, our children. It was a good time.
Mike needs prayer for his back. He needs an answer for healing. His MRI showed he doesn't need surgery, and he was feeling better, but since Thursday he's been in constant pain. He can only take his pain medicine once every 8 hours. It wears off way too soon. So he will call the doctor tomorrow morning. Hoping he can get an epidural and that that will help him.
Alisha is turning her back on her family by dating (perhaps is already married) to a guy we don't know, but have some strong reservations about. We will continue to pray for her that God will lead her back.
Heidi & Jeff are struggling financially as so many are. It's hard to see your children go through tough times and not really be able to help. Our prayer is that each of them will be able to find better jobs, which won't be easy. We also pray for them as they raise little Zachary in the ways of the Lord.
Andy is seeking a full time Worship Leader position. He graduates at the end of April. We know he and Mackenzie want to get married sometime in the future, but his first need to find a job to support himself and her.
Ben is enjoying his time at Bible college. He has made some wonderful new friends. We are thankful he will be coming home March 14-21. Two of his friends bought him a plan ticket as a birthday surprise. We pray for him to continue to trust God for now and the future.
Me? I need prayer to believe. I have been struggling lately because I am wondering where God is. Oh, I know where He is. He's with me. But sometimes I feel He's so far away because I'm not seeing answers. It's a tough place to be in. My prayer...Lord, help my unbelief.
Hope everyone is having a wonderful day.
Saturday was a most miserable day healthwise. But I'd already made arrangements to meet someone from my church in Waterloo at Hancock Fabrics. She's going to help me re-upholster my dining room chairs and cedar chest. I found material for $32 which will do 6 chairs and 1 chest (the chest will be different material, of course). I'm excited to get started. I think we'll work on it next Saturday. I should be feeling much better by then. I stopped at KMart because I needed to put something on layaway. Then I drug (dragged?) myself to WalMart to do some grocery shopping. I left the house at 8:30 and got home at 1:00. After unloading the car and putting things away I took a nap. Another lazy afternoon and evening.
This morning I debated whether to go to church. I could have gotten someone else to play the piano, but I was also in the choir and there weren't many choir members available this week, so I felt I needed to go. I made it through. We did the service a little different today. We held it in the fellowship hall and sat around tables. Communion bread and juice were in the center of each table. It was a meaningful time. We also spent time praying for our families, our children. It was a good time.
Mike needs prayer for his back. He needs an answer for healing. His MRI showed he doesn't need surgery, and he was feeling better, but since Thursday he's been in constant pain. He can only take his pain medicine once every 8 hours. It wears off way too soon. So he will call the doctor tomorrow morning. Hoping he can get an epidural and that that will help him.
Alisha is turning her back on her family by dating (perhaps is already married) to a guy we don't know, but have some strong reservations about. We will continue to pray for her that God will lead her back.
Heidi & Jeff are struggling financially as so many are. It's hard to see your children go through tough times and not really be able to help. Our prayer is that each of them will be able to find better jobs, which won't be easy. We also pray for them as they raise little Zachary in the ways of the Lord.
Andy is seeking a full time Worship Leader position. He graduates at the end of April. We know he and Mackenzie want to get married sometime in the future, but his first need to find a job to support himself and her.
Ben is enjoying his time at Bible college. He has made some wonderful new friends. We are thankful he will be coming home March 14-21. Two of his friends bought him a plan ticket as a birthday surprise. We pray for him to continue to trust God for now and the future.
Me? I need prayer to believe. I have been struggling lately because I am wondering where God is. Oh, I know where He is. He's with me. But sometimes I feel He's so far away because I'm not seeing answers. It's a tough place to be in. My prayer...Lord, help my unbelief.
Hope everyone is having a wonderful day.
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